The Reality of Changing Your Fitness That You Won’t Admit To…Yet

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This week at work we are preparing for a big weight loss challenge that our company puts on to help inspire members to get into the shape they’ve been wanting to do for years. It’s huge three-month event with a $10,000 grand prize and after seeing a few of these throughout my employment, it never fails to amaze me the kind of remarkable changes the every-day person will make when they are ready for the commitment.  As a trainer, it is inspiring to see our clients transform inside and out before our very eyes.  Unfortunately, we do see many people who enter this challenge just as excited and motivated as the “winners”, but never seem to make it past a couple of weeks or pounds to then enter the next challenge, diet, or work out fad with the same enthusiasm and the same results.  (repeat cycle for this rest of their life)

Where do they go wrong?

I constantly meet with people who want to change their health and bodies and for some reason they believe they can do it themselves. I don’t mean any disrespect when I say this, but really?!

Let’s think about this for a second…

You dislike your body, you’re overweight, your body hurts when you wake up up in the morning and suffer random aches because of “old age”, you’re on medication to live longer or close to it…and you believe you can change all your “bad” habits over night and make this radical change?  You’ve spent your entire life creating the body you currently have.  If it was so easy to wake up in the morning and go to the gym then why haven’t you done it already?  If it was so easy get rid of all the sugar in your diet or strip yourselves from carbs then why haven’t you done it already?  If your solution to your weight problem is taking Zumba class four times a week and eating Greek yogurt and granola as your breakfast and a salad for dinner, then why haven’t you freakin’ done that already?

Because it is NOT that easy and (most likely) the radical plan of action you created is not realistic or sustainable.  I call it “radical” because going from the couch to the gym 5 times a week is an extreme change for most people.  You live a busy life with work, family, school commitments, not to mention the social life that you don’t want to give up as (you shouldn’t have to) and there is a high chance you dislike working out.  We live in a world where our health takes a back seat and everything else in our life comes first. When the reality is we can’t do any of these things in our life without our health unless you strive to suffer forever.

So, I ask again…if changing your health and fitness was that easy then why haven’t you done it already?

This isn’t being said with the intention of making anyone feel bad or incapable of standing on their own two feet.  I believe that at some point you will do this on your own, but right now, in the infant stages of your health and fitness journey you need someone to help you because it is NOT THAT EASY!  Some people need help in accountability and motivation, while others just need some education to make the right choices.  Some people need all of the above just to make it through the gym doors and that is okay.

Think about your fitness goals and be honest with where you are currently at.  Take a second to look at the big picture; what has been standing in your way all these years? What kind of help do you really need?  And when you decide to enter a new challenge, set a new years resolution or consider spending a shit ton of money on a new diet fad, put some thought in to the realistic obstacles that will challenge you to make changes and find a place or a person who can help you overcome them when they occur, because they will.

Motivation only lasts so long when you are in the same body two days later.

I know some of you are thinking that you have to spend a lot of money on a trainer to see success. And yes, it’s not a secret that trainers cost money and it would be wonderful if we could all afford a trainer.  It also shouldn’t come as a surprise that you may need to invest in your health and use some of your financial resources.  If you can’t squeeze a dime out of your current budget then it doesn’t mean you’re shit out of luck.  What it does mean is that you are going to have to get creative and do some research to see what is available to you.  Either way, changing your life now requires time and money.   Do you want to spend money now on preventive health or would you rather save up your Starbucks pennies for reactive health care? The choice is yours and when it’s time the change will happen and you will be ready for it.

Whether you decide to set your new fitness today or next year, I just ask you take the time to get real with your expectations and know what it means to accomplish the goals your goals.

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7 Weeks Out & Getting Off Da Sugah


As I sit in my bed completely binging on “Prison Break” I begin to think about my prep, the progress and my efforts.   Immediately my mind goes to fear that I won’t be ready in time.  No matter how many people tell me that I’m  “good”, something inside me triggers panic mode and I have to refrain myself from overdoing it.  I try not to focus too much of my energy in that fear and instead I think about what can I do this week to help myself progress.

There are two things I’ve been saying I am going to give up in my diet for a while now but couldn’t bear to let go.  Are you ready to laugh at me?  The two things that I’ve been obsessed with are my sugary ass coffee creamer and gummy vitamins.  I know, it sounds ridiculous but here’s the thing;  I don’t need my coffee creamer because I don’t need coffee.  Coffee doesn’t give me energy in the morning and I don’t like the bitter taste, which is why I drown it in white chocolate creamer.  I believe in flexible dieting and I believe it is something you can do on show prep, but if I don’t need to consume sugary shit every morning then why do it?  My coffee is like a cup of dessert in the morning and I believe my unwillingness to let that go for this prep only speaks to how much I am serious about my prep commitment.

Gummy vitamins, oh….the gummy vitamins….those bad boys are amazing!!  Once again, I don’t need these gummy vitamins since I have real adult vitamins so I eat these little babies as another form of a treat.  The thing with these gummy vitamins is that they are sugar and have carbs.  It may not be much, but with the way I like consume them I am not surprised that I’m not peeing a neon yellow every morning.

As silly as it may sound to the non-prepping person who is trying to limit their diet soda intake, this has been my way to “get around” my commitment for some sweet tooth satisfaction.  Committing to a show isn’t a lifestyle committment.  This isn’t a quick fix to lose weight and it doesn’t necessarily promote lifestyle change (at least not all of them).  When I committed to this show I committed to the challenge and everything it was going to take to get to my goal.

So…I’m 7 weeks out.  That means 7 more weeks of more of my effort and 7 less weeks of coffee and gummy vitamins. When I’m done with show prep I will sure as hell enjoy a hot cup of dessert coffee with a side of gummies, but for now I can stand to be a grown up and cut the shit out.

By the way, today is day 1 and my withdrawal shakes are minimal.  I think I got this!

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I’ve Been a Bad Blogger

I’m sorry, I’ve been MIA for a few weeks now…I know, I failed. Truthfully, I’ve been unmotivated in a lot of things and blogging was one of them. Blah, blah, blah…life got hard, stress was higher and I slacked off. Waaaah!

While I was slacking I was thinking about you a lot and I realized I was trying to be the blogger that I’m not and create a site that was never my vision.  Blogging was something I enjoyed doing and did it anonymously for 3 years before “Beauty In The Buff” was born.  Then I became public as I document my new fitness challenge of getting on stage for the first time.

When it comes to the blog, I never aspired to be your trainer or nutrition guru.  Sure, I will share fun and educational things as I came across them but my goal is not to be your next online fitness star who knows it all.  I just want to share my love for fitness and all the great things that changed in my life hoping it could change yours too.

I apologize in advance for the shift in awkward changes, but I will be transitioning back to my blog purpose; a documented journey of a girl who loves to share entertaining stories with the hopes of inspiring (and entertaining) you!

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Week 10: So Much More To Give

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“Your mind will quit a thousand times before your body will.  Feel the fear and do it anyway.”

This week everything felt harder; my carb cycle changed and my cardio intensity was increased.  In fact, the exact words said when it came down to cardio was, “Go as hard as you can and don’t hold back.  Just do it!”  I would be lying if I said making myself go harder didn’t scare me but I also can recognize that it is easy to stay in my comfort zone of discomfort.  You know, that place that sucks enough to feel pain but bearable enough where you know you will still make it out alive?  We all have that comfort zone of discomfort and I’m no different.

This past Monday afternoon, I decided to quadruple up on sports bras and run as fast as I could until my legs couldn’t keep up and I increased my chances of passing out, throwing up and busting my face on the treadmill with the opportunity to make it on the next Facebook circuit of gym fails.   Luckily my face looks the same and vomiting did not occur.

However, half way through my 20 min of sprints I wanted to quit so damn bad.  I found myself making excuses as to why I couldn’t continue or justified how what I had already accomplished was enough.  I knew it wasn’t enough and I even though I couldn’t feel my feet and time moved so effin slow, I found a way to remind myself that I was wearing big girl panties and decided to finish the damn thing.

My ribs were killing me.

Sweat was dripping from my wrists.

The lighting in the room was starting to dim and I could barely catch my breath.

It was the most rewarding moment of hell I have ever experienced.


It was in my moments of trying to desperately recover that I realized I made it out alive.  I didn’t die, the pain was temporary and I may have grunted out a few F bombs, but I was alive.  Not only did I live to do it again, but there was so much untapped strength and unused effort that I had no idea existed.  That in itself was the greatest gift that HIIT cardio could ever give me.  Don’t get me wrong, I still despise sprints or any form of cardio that makes me feel like I’ll never make it in one piece, but I can’t help but appreciate this realization that my body is capable of much more than what I give it credit for.  Man, I’m looking forward to seeing what else I can do to share more of my near death experiences.

Get comfortable with being uncomfortable and amazing things will happen.

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Egg Muffins


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When I started meal prepping I was always looking for a way to make breakfast just as easy and quick as all my other prepped meals. And then I found….Egg Muffins!  This is a great breakfast for those who don’t have to sit at home and eat but need something quick on the go.  You can put whatever you’d like in your muffins but here is what I started with.

INGREDIENTS for 24 cupcakes:IMG_4778

  • 1 red bell pepper
  • 2 roma tomatoes
  • Fresh Basil
  • 3-4 scallions (green onion)
  • 6 whole eggs + 4 cups of egg whites
  • Salt to taste
  • Add 3-4 Bacon Strips for extra protein and fat


  1. Chop up all of your veggies and cut your bacon into small pieces.  Mix veggies together in a bowl and whisk whole eggs and egg whites together in a separate bowl.  Set Aside bacon.
  2. Line your muffin tins with cupcake holders and spray with PAM. If you don’t have liners, you can directly spray PAM onto the tin. Then fill your cups with about a tablespoon of egg mixture.
  3. Next fill the rest of the cup up with veggies and bacon.
  4. Fill to the top with the rest of your eggs. You can fill it to the brim as it shouldn’t rise.
  5. Pop them into the oven at 375F for about 20-30 min or until you see that they are firm on top.

per muffin without bacon: 44.2 cals, 1.4g fat, 1.3g carbs, 6g protein.

Set aside your Egg Muffins in the fridge and grab a few on your way to work this week!


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11 Weeks Out: My Story

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Well, I am 11 weeks out and good God time is flying by!  I don’t really have much to update on how the week went so I figure I would let you in on how I even got into this madness of competing in the first place.

Fall of 2011

It’s almost  my 3 year anniversary of diving into this crazy fitness world that started with my first competition.  Prior to that I hated working out.  In fact, it was my form of punishment because I hated my body and had a lot of other self esteem issues that were masked in my extreme unhealthy relationship with food.  I lived on a constant diet (or 744647_1307911697608_fullattempted to at least), tried almost every fad you can think of and only knew how to run.   I always felt fat even at my smallest and would have done anything to look like a Victoria’s Secret model.    Funny enough, I had a secret obsession with muscle and what I really wanted was to look like Janet Jackson during her “All For You” Tour.  But society didn’t obsess about Janet Jackson’s body like they did with the Angels so being the unhappy insecure person I was I decided to jump on the VS bandwagon.

Whether it was muscular or lean, it was not something I thought I could accomplish. In fact, my issues were much deeper then just getting on a regime and figuring out how to squat.

It wasn’t until I took my first job at Life Time Athletic in Scottsdale, AZ as a front desk girl where I realized muscular woman existed.  Working the early morning shift I began to notice a group of women who were training for a figure show.  I so badly wanted to look like them but when I found out what they did to get their look and how often they worked out I “knew” that would never be me,

 “I’m bingeing on food every night and there was no way in hell I was going to ever be able to do a competition…but maybe, one day.  One day I will do a show…just one show….just to say ‘I did it.'”

Despite the lack of confidence I had to pursue this, I never let go of the dream and always said, “One day…”

February 2013…it was time to make that “one day” the day.

After spending several months heartbroken over this douche noodle, I literally woke up one morning and said to myself, “Today is the day.”   You don’t need to know anything about this guy other than that he was a douche who apparently looked like a noodle.  I don’t know, google it.  I can’t explain what happened to me that switched me into competition mode but what I can tell you is that I was tired of crying over this noodle and I wanted to do something for myself.  From that morning on my life changed.  I went from never lifting a weight in my life to lifting 6 days a week and trying my best to follow my diet plan.  I started this blog (all original content was unfortunately lost) made my diet mistakes, went through different coaches until I found the right one and 20 weeks later I made it to the stage. It was not an easy task; in fact I did a lot of emotional healing with therapy during my prep which was never my original intention.  How all that came about will be saved for another post but the combination of therapy and exercise helped me heal and establish a healthy relationship with my body, which was something I never thought to be possible.

Today, January 2015

After competing and placing in my first show I knew this was something I wanted to do again.  However, I struggled getting back into the groove and sticking with a plan.  I realized now that I was too busy enjoying the gym and food that I didn’t want to jump back into a competition prep.   The gym was a brand new toy for me and I had so many things I could play with and learn.  My work outs didn’t have a distinct plan other than picking shit up, putting shit down and doing it so many different ways.  These past 3 years have been a blast but as you know, I am ready for a the next challenge; competing as a different woman!


“I’ve never seen any life transformation that didn’t begin with the person in questions finally getting tired of their own bullshit.” – Elizabeth Gilbert



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